Poem: Will you fuck me?

I wish I could say

What I really want to say

If I so much as smile

You would see me as too eager

If I so much as insinuate

You’d deprecate my state

The Games we play

Like an elaborate chase

To risk the shame

And bare myself

To forsake my sanity

And consummate our ecstasy

Will you fuck me 

And still respect me?

OR

Will you tag me as your whore 

Just because I let you inside my core?

 

Pray, tell

How are you hailed a Stud

With every fuck you score

But I, woefully,

Baptised a slut?

Why do the scales tip

In your favour

When my dignity strips?

I did not sign the waiver

To forgo all liberty to savour

Do you comprehend

What words cannot fend

When minds refuse to mend?

Your conquest is not 

Of my body or lust,

But the offering

Of my heart

To Thee.

Yet

The burning question

remains…

Will you fuck me, and still love me?

OR 

Will I be made to bear the cross?

Personal Note:

The above poem will go down in my blog’s history as the most famous or infamous. I feel the need to explain myself as many seem to have missed the whole point. Some even thought that it was a direct invitation for sex, from myself. May be they did not read further than the title.

To be frank, this has been my boldest title ever. However, I chose it especially. Partly to be sarcastic, and partly for its shocking value. Even the structure of the poem at the beginning, the fonts and etc are deliberate and telling. Among other things, it reflects how society and some men view women. I sincerely hope each person reading will see its deeper meaning, and not be offended by the title. 

I am an Asian single mother and yes, I write about sex, erotica and used the word, “Fuck”. But none of it means that I am “open for business”. Rather, I am “opening” the lines of better communications, “creating” interesting platforms for discussion and hopefully, “cultivating” a higher understanding for all – myself included.

Thank you for still reading and staying on as my true fans, followers and readers. I do appreciate all of you deeply. You make it worthwhile for me to push the boundaries, break stereotypes and risk my own reputation. As long as one person gained or learnt something valuable through my work, then my job is done. This is why I write what I write, and do what I do. 

With my deepest gratitude,

SMT

Being Afraid Is Human, But Staying Afraid Is A Choice.

57 Comments
  • scottishmomus
    January 13, 2014

    Wow! It seems to have always been this way. Although the words ‘man whore’ are more prevalent now I notice than stud so maybe a change in perception by some. Certainly by women.
    ‘Your conquest is not of my body or lust, But the offering of my heart to thee’ sums it up perfectly for me. And that seems to be how men get away with it. For women, as a generality, sex involves the heart. Not always so, perhaps, but more frequently than men equate sex with the heart. Maybe it will always be this way.
    A marvellous poem, Shirley, depicting so well the inequality and distorted perceptions surrounding sex and relationships. x

    • shirleymaya
      January 13, 2014

      Thank you so much for your comments, Anne-Marie 🙂
      I agree that it will take a long while to mend the inequality and distorted perception. It would be job for men and women to come together (in a non-sexual way) to work on.It cannot shatter with just one side putting in all the effort, and the other unravelling all the hard work.
      We need to re-define what’s real intimacy in human sexuality.

      Hugs x

  • Mr. Strider
    January 13, 2014

    I’ll give my heart to you shirley ^_^
    love you so much

    • shirleymaya
      January 13, 2014

      LOL…and who are you, Mr. Strider?

      • falconlightz
        January 13, 2014

        Juz a guy who admire you ^-~

        • shirleymaya
          January 14, 2014

          😉 Mystery Admirer then 😉 Thank you

          • Mr. Strider
            January 15, 2014

            Keep on writing okies ^_^

          • shirleymaya
            January 15, 2014

            Yes, naturally…it’s the only thing I know how to do that is within my control 😉

  • m0jake
    January 13, 2014

    You are heard. Please know that there still exist guys who stand by the principle that, despite the “nice guys finish last” and “all girls love bad boys” relationship stereotypes, love should always come first before sex. Traditional may be in all sense, however, these guys only work for what are essentials.

    My friends would almost hate me for not submitting to their whimsical pressure. They are always confused as to why I would never nudge a bit into their life mantra. Then add my being an introvert to the equation.

    • shirleymaya
      January 13, 2014

      Thank you for sharing. It is very encouraging to see that there are still good men out there, men who know what’s of true value and will not be cowed by their peers to act like jocks. It would be most tragic if all men view women as ‘sex objects’ and nothing else. I am glad to hear that you are leagues above these men 🙂

  • Ranting Crow
    January 13, 2014

    That is spicy conversation like that.
    And so true as mentioned above about who uses the heart the most. and might get hurt.
    Wonderful read

    • shirleymaya
      January 14, 2014

      Thank you so much for your comments. Actually, I was much inspired by this poem http://astraltravler.wordpress.com/2013/12/29/he-said-she-said-round-two/
      It was a collaboration of two very talented bloggers/poets 😉

  • Desiree G
    January 13, 2014

    Wow!! I certainly think you found the words!! 🙂 The separation of heart from body or the acceptance of heart AND body! As if I needed more to think about today!!

    • shirleymaya
      January 14, 2014

      D, your poems always make me think more than I should! In a good way 😉
      Thank you for your kind words. Above all, thank you for your friendship. It’s great to be connected with people who sees the value and beauty in words 😉

      • Desiree G
        January 14, 2014

        I agree completely, Shirley!!!! 🙂

  • Li Kim
    January 14, 2014

    Wow. …. powerful. I don’t think that the nasty truth could have been written this upfront yet not offensive way. I even think it’s fucking sexy. If anyone takes offence then I would ask Why? Does the truth hurt? Great poem babe!

    • shirleymaya
      January 14, 2014

      Thank you, darling. You are always so supportive of my work. Appreciate that immensely. Mega hugs to you 😉

  • Thom Amundsen
    January 14, 2014

    I like Li Kim’s assessment that the ‘truth hurts’ – so often people want to avoid their realities and are left frustrated and wanton. Sexy, strong poem – leaves me curious about the font placement, the diagram of the piece. Clever retelling of that reality we would all like to get straight to without the games, the humiliation, the trivialization… 🙂

    • shirleymaya
      January 14, 2014

      You are so perceptive, Thom!
      The font placement and structure of the poem were deliberate to emphasize how our thoughts move from one to another, how we play games like “the chase” or “hide n seek”. At the beginning, she could not say what she wanted to say, she ponders and drifts from one to another – not going straight to the point.
      And then it does happen – she moves to the middle, straight to the heart of the truth. Finally, summoned her courage to say exactly what she really wanted to say in the first place. I am glad you saw that. Made my day 😉

  • man of man
    January 14, 2014

    Not all men views a women as sex object. Women should be adored and reapected and loved above all except God.

    Sex is a meeting of two hearts as one, love. The act of sex shouldn’t be merely about lust. It should about caressing, playfully seducing, taking your time to experience all that is intimate about love making.

    • shirleymaya
      January 14, 2014

      I am very glad that not all men objectify women. Both men and women should indeed take their time to truly get to know one another 🙂 Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts.

  • astraltravler
    January 15, 2014

    Dearest Shirley,
    A little something from me to you. http://astraltravler.wordpress.com/2014/01/14/friends-followers-award/
    XoXo
    Anastasia

    • shirleymaya
      January 15, 2014

      Humbled and honoured. Hugs x

  • kdavisfanclub
    January 15, 2014

    superb poem, very passionate and filled with raw emotion. I like the subtle start and then the fiery flow. thanks for sharing

    • shirleymaya
      January 15, 2014

      Thank you very kindly. I feel humbled and yet much relieved when another poet “approves” of my work. It aligns me to the poem even more, if you know what I mean. Thanks again!

  • enaj
    January 17, 2014

    amazing… will read more of your works… i also want to write but don’t have the courage to do so… but this one inspires me… 🙂

    • shirleymaya
      January 17, 2014

      Thank you, I am very glad that inspires you. Everyone has a story to tell. I hope you do write 🙂

  • rex
    January 17, 2014

    I like your poem “will you fuck me”

    • shirleymaya
      January 17, 2014

      Thank you, but what is it exactly that you like about it? 🙂

  • ian
    January 17, 2014

    like

    • shirleymaya
      January 17, 2014

      Thanks, but I would have liked to learn more about what you like about it 🙂

  • Lorenzo A. Fernandez Jr.
    January 17, 2014

    sure and still your dignity will be intact

    • shirleymaya
      January 17, 2014

      The poem is NOT an invitation. The poem is a reflection of society and the way some men think of women as sex objects.

      • Lorenzo A. Fernandez Jr.
        January 17, 2014

        I know. I’m just saying how I treat women in general, gently and with respect to their dignity as the opposite sex.

        • shirleymaya
          January 17, 2014

          In that case, my apologies. I am very glad to learn that you do treat women, in general, with respect to their dignity. We need more men who do. Thank you for clarifying.

  • rex
    January 17, 2014

    My answer is yes and I would not think of you less but more for entering your core. It will be you who will consume me not I don’t ask me why. Willingly I submit, I surrender, ready to die. Sorry my poetic attempt is lousy but that is my reply. 🙂

    • shirleymaya
      January 17, 2014

      Thanks for sharing your comments and poetic verses. The poem is NOT an invitation, but a reflection of society and how some men obectify women. And I hope more men see the deeper meaning of the poem, and not think it is an invitation.

  • Mo man
    January 17, 2014

    Hi there I totally agree with you and understand your poem. Most men see woman as a sex object to conquer. Personally I believe woman are the first wonder of the world and should be treated with complete respect. My BEAUTIFUL fiancée is the reason why my life is so wonderful. She is firstly my true soul mate, my best friend, the woman I truly LOVE, my Lover and most of all the woman that complete’s me. We don’t FUCK we embrace each other when we make passionate Love and to me that is the true value when 2 people become one. So thank you Shirley Maya your poem FUCK ME was awesome and I will stay on and read more of your poems cheers.

    • shirleymaya
      January 18, 2014

      THANK YOU! I love everything you wrote. If only more people thought like you and love like you. Please do share and re-post this poem so that more people can learn a different way to love, respect and even be a friend to a woman. I would appreciate that very much. Thank you again, and wishing you and your fiancee many joyous years filled with love, and tenderness 🙂

  • Thom Amundsen
    January 18, 2014

    I wondered about the additional post and can only imagine the ignorance that followed. Being male, I also understand temptation; however reading truths in what is obvious is often lost on the masses.

    • shirleymaya
      January 18, 2014

      It’s funny to read your encouraging comment here and compare to one comment negative I just received at my FB Fan page. He gave me a lecture! LOL
      However, my intentions are sincere and hence, my conscience is clear 🙂
      Thanks again for sharing, Thom. Always a pleasure 🙂

  • Verdun A. Andrade
    January 18, 2014

    You are a great writer SHIRLEYMAYA!!! Your style is simple but direct to the point and leaves nothing to the imagination but… double bladed. It all depends on the state of the mind of the reader. A healthy mind will appreciate & admire your writings!

    ” WOMAN IS THE 1ST WONDER OF THE WORLD” Do you agree?

    • shirleymaya
      January 18, 2014

      Thank you for your kind words. I think humanity is the 1st and greatest wonder of the world – it includes everyone – man, woman, child 🙂

  • bong
    January 18, 2014

    a good modern poetry which speaks of a woman’s mind with regards to man-woman relationship… where men always dominant and women are just subjects of men’s desires and decisions! in an intimate relationship between two opposite sex, deep affection could be rightly expressed in words and caresses, not just by sex alone… it is more assuring for both if romantic communications are given preferences in establishing respect and love for one another than just resorting go sexual intercourse… i love the poem for it resounds a liberal outlook of a woman in an intimate relationship where very often, they are always considered as man’s property with limited rights to speak out of their emotions…

    • shirleymaya
      January 18, 2014

      Thank you for sharing your thoughts here. I am veyr encouraged to read all the positive comments coming from the men, especially. In this blog, and in my FB fan page. Thank goodness for all the good men in the world 🙂

  • Hembee Josa
    January 18, 2014

    beautifully written! I so love it! ❤️ keep on writing 🙂

    • shirleymaya
      January 18, 2014

      Thank you 🙂 I will keep on writing, as long as my words can contribute.

  • Kev
    February 10, 2014

    Love your style. It’s a shame you felt that you had to explain the poem. Why would anyone take it at face value? It’s a poem.

    • shirleymaya
      February 10, 2014

      Thanks for your kind comments, Kev. Well, the note was inserted as many did not quite understand why I would write such a poem using that kind of “words” and yes, there were some who thought it was an invitation. I thought it best to clarify in order to dispell unnecessary misunderstandings. I live in Malaysia. Things are often misinterpreted.

      • Kev
        February 11, 2014

        Dear me. Well take care then lol

  • beeseeker
    February 24, 2014

    direct and honest !
    love the way it is written: the format as well as the words chosen … helping to make the point.

    • shirleymaya
      February 25, 2014

      Means a lot coming from a master poet himself. Thank you again 🙂

  • THAMAN SINGH
    October 27, 2014

    If you cannot respect,share and please a woman’s body then you don’t deserve to have sex with her.It’s all about pleasing and appreciating each other

    • shirleymaya
      October 27, 2014

      Well put. I can’t argue with that. 🙂

  • WPA.
    April 22, 2015

    God, Maya! I feel you! I feel every single word. I feel like it was me talking. That’s the thing about some men I have met the past months. I try my best not to be vulnerable because I have been building this wall from these men…But, the past men I have met were all the same and wanted the same thing. And they left me feeling fucked up and messed. But thank you…thank you for this poem. I understand every single word. This is definitely not an invite to sex. This is a challenge to every man… “Will you fuck me, and still love me? OR Will I be made to bear the cross?”

  • shirleymaya
    April 22, 2015

    Do take heart, WPA – there are still many wonderful and great men around. We just have to learn to be wiser and more discerning in separating the good ones from the lousy ones. Always know what’s of value and meaning to you. Then, anchor yourself in that and don’t let anyone (men or women) sway you from it or mess with your head. We attract what we truly seek. So, change the way you think or feel or even dress, if it is applicable to reflect the authentic you. Do whatever you need to put out your best – not for them – but for you. All the very best. 🙂